I always be in fear of becoming an adult because of many reasons....

partially because the family that i am in.....
partially because the parent i have......
partially because my encounter with adults in early life....
partially because bad memories with adults......

when i was young,i remembered that i wished that i will nv want to become an adult as i had a very bad impression of my family and my parents nv trusted me at all before.....

my mom was so biased....she care for my elder bro more than me.....
whenever she is angry,im the one who get scolded the fiercest...
what's the point???
she force me to wake up in the middle of the night, she scold me when i was in wrong (I dont mind abt it la if im in wrong) but she even scold me when i didnt do anything....

Why does an adult gets to scold their kids whenever they like it or not???
i only have a short period of happiness before waves of unhappiness strikes in my family.....

when i dont study, my mom will scold me for studying......(i dont mind that she scold me because of my bad results because i nv study)...but when i study,my mom will say that i never put in effort in studying....(she kept thinking that i must get into poly but the thing is she doesnt want to pay for my poly fees AT ALL....and she said that i must get into poly) i get all Bs for my results,she said i can get all As....

when i get an A in any module,she will tell me ok lor........

ever since i was young, i nv done a right thing in my mom's eyes.....simply because she nv see what i do.....she rather believe her customers or teachers than me.......

every year my teachers will meet my mom even though she is busy....simply because i dont study,i dont do homework and i always nv hand in handwork.....and my results....

i keep silence when im in the wrong....then my mom will think that i feel that i kena torture like that.....

when im only being looked down in my family.... although there are times i dont have to do things....but most of the times i need to do things...

although i do complain most of the times.....but i do enjoy doing the things at times........

what's the point of becoming an adult????

the good points of becoming an adult??
- no more sch
- get salary
- work fixed time....
-family fun and laughter

bad points of becoming an adult
- family burden
- may not be working at fixed time...
- always have to worry for salary being not enough
- money out is faster than money in....

JESUS,i need you now....
I need you more than any other problems....
I lay down all my sadness,my problems,my weakness to you....

Dear heavenly father,
i pray that you will let me be back into home with you....i pray that i will be in heaven and not in hell,i pray that father you will help me to pay back what i owe you and everyone...and let everybody be glad that i'm gone....i pray that when i die, my family will have peace in their family as i will not be anymore burden to them.... although i'm blessed by your love,father,i seek you 1st.....forgive me for all my sins and wash away my sins,i pray that you will come into my heart once again and make me new...let my old self die and new self alive.....and father i pray that you will take me home in a silent way so that i will not feel the pain when i die...in your name i pray,Amen.....

» Postado por dreams - 4/20/2010 08:40:00 PM
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name: Low Yao Rong

D.O.B: 19/08/1990

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age: 19 years old (Going to be 20 years old this year)

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